i woke up at 4 am. the room felt humid. it was raining. i tried to go back to sleep but i wasn't very successful. i dozed off for a few minutes at a time. my mind was already in 'hyperactive mode'. thoughts were running at high speed and worries about the uncertain future kept my mind occupied. The house was absolutely quiet. everybody seemed to be sound asleep. even the cats. i tried to concentrate on my breath, on a plan for the day, on Spanish words. Time seemed to stand still, no morning light was in sight. i had a slight headache. i got up, walked around, drank some water, sat down again. I felt too tired to turn on the night lamp and read. all i wanted was to go back to sleep. eventually, the morning light started to crawl into the room and with the dawn of the day i fell asleep again.