the bed linen was soft and warm this morning, the duvet cover cozy and comfortable. the alarm clock cruel and the meow from 'fat cat' annoying. it is raining today. i feel blue. the street is wet and the birds are hiding. the coffee is warm. the neighbor two houses down the street is going on a four week cruise along the coast of Africa. how wonderful. all the national parks, the excursions. i can dream myself away. any time. easily. i would love to see new places. i would love to travel. to explore. but nothing seems more impossible for now. so i travel in my imagination. during my walks. while gazing at old tree trunks. daydreaming. sometimes i see myself on a sunny ocean shore, surrounded by lots of people, sometimes i see myself in an old courtyard, overgrown with beautiful flowers, setting a large dinner table. will any of these various dreams create a reality of their own? and if so, what is the first step now?